Love Yo Self
This summer in my small group, we were required to give ourselves a challenge. My challenge was to love myself. Having always struggled with insecurities and body image issues, I felt like I made the right choice. I'd like to say that I really took this challenge seriously, but I didn't. I got caught up in traveling, my clients, and putting other's problems before my own needs.
Maybe it was God or maybe it was just inevitable but around summer's end, I got knocked on my ass. I had one of those months where everything that could have went wrong, went wrong. This forced me to refocus and regroup. I got back in the gym and started taking my workouts more seriously. I started reading again, one of my favorite things to do. I started saying NO to people I normally say yes to. I started saying YES to people I normally say no to. I started telling myself the tiny problems that come up during my work day aren't the end of the world and I shouldn't stress so much about them. I stopped being so paranoid about what others thought of me and realized everyone has their own problems to worry about. I realized that all of those negative things I have been told about myself are likely just another persons insecurities projected. Hell, I even started this blog as a creative outlet.
I have more clarity than I have had in a while. I feel like a weight has been lifted off of my shoulders. I don't carry others baggage around with me every day. I ACTUALLY SLEEP THROUGH THE NIGHT (something I haven't done in maybe 3 years). Although a few months late, I finally feel like I am beginning to love myself. I know that I am capable of amazing things. I know that I am smart and hard working. I know that I am a great and loving friend. I know that I shouldn't have to force someone to want to be in my life. I am worthy.
Loving yourself is a process but I think I am already past the hardest part. Now I can start really living.