The Truth About Funemployment
Being funemployed for about 3 weeks now has been...interesting. At first, I kept myself so busy it was basically like I had a full time job anyway. Then once I finished running a million errands, I did some hiking but being alone was boring. I've been able to grab lunches with friends, get extra workouts in, and really just clean out my apartment. I've been getting weekly massages, chiropractor sessions, acupuncture and facials at Health Within Center (HIGHLY recommend them if you live in LA!). Overall, funemployment has been an exercise in futility for me. I want to be busy. I want to do things. I want to wrap up my live in Los Angeles... but I have no money to do all the things I want to do. I know this is the time that I need to sit still and be comfortable in the silence, but it's hard.
For the past 7 years, I have gone non-stopped. I haven't had downtime. I don't know how to just chill. I HAVE NO CHILL. The longer I sit, the more time I have to worry. Worry about a new job (I have a few great leads so far), worry about where I am going to live when I decide to leave my parents house, worry if I will make friends in Raleigh, just worry worry worry. I am being proactive and putting the work in so I know things will fall into place the way they need to. BUT. I. AM. IMPATIENT.
I now have less than two weeks left in this beautiful city. I want to do all the things but I have to realize if I don't, that's okay. I just have to take things a day at the time, make my to do lists and also find time to just enjoy the process. I am sure I will look back on all of this in a few months and laugh at how neurotic I am being.